BESTFRIEND?

Sigh. After I decided not to think or talk or see or bother towards commitment or true love, and for almost 1 year I happy with it, I am OK the way I am.. the new “whateverlah”me...and today I receive a call from “so-called- best-friend” or “ex-best-friend” or I don’t know how to categorize her into lah…called me with a very shy voice… “ ermm im getting engaged this Sunday..wld u come?” . Suddenly my whole soul & cheerful thoughts fade into bold thick black shit. Thanks to you.

I don’t know why I cant be happy with the news. Envy? Nah… I’ve had better before compared to hers. During Hari Raya for the last few months, I also got the same news from my officemate.. I scream & jump happily for her tho. I think im not that icey hearted evil monster which cant be happy at all to other people good news… but for this one.. the one that I receive today… felt so.. gulping thick black espresso. Bitter.

I couldn’t help myself by thinking back to the old days.. when me & her have such a good time.. I knew her for almost 10 years.. we laughed, cried even shared the same interest in fashion sense together. We had same pair of heels, handbags, same funky top, exactly same pair of corduroy jean and not least, lacey panties. Everytime we bump into something nice, we had each other feelings in mind..like “ ehs im sure she also like this” and the next day we came back together to the same shop to buy another one.

She loves my cook, I love her jokes, she addicted to my dirty cursed when I am angry, I admired her straight- from -the -heart critics. She was there when lots of thing going on for me.. regardless good or bad. She knew all my secrets. I think I understand her well too. She said so. We phoned each other from the office for gossips, even we were housemate. Not enough with that, we faxed each other too. Not to mention the emails…

Her attitude towards me changed god damn fast, quickie than the moment u took to "unhook your bra" after she met her guy.. It seems like you saw Micheal Jackson without make up~! I didn’t recognize her at all. She keep all as a secret as if im her enemy. Felt so weird coz, that guy is not a stranger to me because he is my Ex’s BESTFRIEND. And the reason she met him also because of me. We always went out together singing karaoke and dinner. I don’t know that once you found the love of your life, you can automatically abandon friends. I thought friend is a friend, darling is darling and char kuey teow is char kuey teow leh. Well I guess I am wrong.

The first thing she did to me is “owh I forgot to inform you I have changed my phone number…” when I ask her why suddenly I couldn’t reach her… my confusing towards her mounting until I don’t know what to do, shld I continue remain close to her but in the same time I scare she think I try to meddle up into her new pink sunglasses world.

Now I come to BELIEVE that no matter how hard life hit you, you only have yourself to rely onto. Yea, after my major breakups, my world fell apart, I don’t even spill a word to her because I know, she wouldn’t give a damn about it. I even got a birthday wishes 10 days earlier from her, and yet she thought the wishes was 5 days belated…….

Party@LunaBar~

Hurmm..what a such goodie opportunity ^^ right after my trip to Cherating, i am invited to Luna Bar 3rd Year Anniversary with the beachy "Hawaiian" Theme~!!...so put on the Glittering dress & accesories (err.. i know the theme was "Hawaiian" but i refuse to look silly in coconut shell bra & olala coconut leaf skirt zzzzz)

So me & my whole team in my office marching to the bar.. the party was good..it was better than the real life beach in Cherating :P cos it's minus SUN, minus SANDFLY, minus SUNBURNT and plus MUSIC + Free Food :) Well.. the food wasnt good tho..coz i dont like grilled lamb at all..no matter how they cook it... i just HATE LAMB. The show was great also.. the performance by Abang Api .. and they invited DJ from Japan.. errr i forgot his name.. but i never forget his cutie face :P Hahas...

Waaa... they even gave us flower necklace & coconut drink at the entrance..Even the hotel i was staying in at Cherating didnt give us such treatment even they are LOCATED near the beach.. bleahs...(hello.. i know Cherating is not Hawai but.. pls put some creativity in welcoming guest.. duh!)The spirit of Beach party suddenly rush in liao! Hurmm...in additional to that.. the performance by Abang Api was really..Wuhoo~! If im not mistaken.. 1 of the song they were dancing & spitting the fire is a Shakira's Hips dont lie.. O.o

The ambiance was good in total..and it was so fun. Sorry for the video taken in such an amateur way :P and manage to captured funny things around. Everytime i watching the clips i will be laughing..and can u imagine if u were there? Syiok lor...

Mind i Step into the Scene?

Yea.. i keep asking myself le.. do i?? do i have time for this?? Owh okie.. if when i was a "kiddy" i always have my pink "Little Mermaid" diary with me.. i wrote down everything what's in my heart...and it meant to be so so so secret.. hehe.. it was so secret, i even blushed out when people saw me writing down my diary...even they dont know what was the crappy lame stuff im writing about eh...LOLs.. i was so..shy...

But now things has changed ey... people wanna share what they feels ..think..what they experiencing about. Well..i guess i got so much thing going on in my so called "happening life" and before i turn into old saggy-not-so-interesting-ahma.. so i wish.. & i wanna share...make every experience and my journey ..mylife as open book^^ So.. here i am~another one of the millions ordinary writes up....